well that SUCKED!

.....But I survived!!! Our sweet baby left yesterday. Her case worker called yesterday morning and said that she would be calling me back in a hour or so to let me know when we would be doing the pick up. then she called back at 3 to tell me she would be at my house between 3 and 3:15. ugghh so we rushed home from the library. Baby girl had been doing this thing where she projectile vomits on strangers that try to hold her. So i warned the case woker and ask if I could put her in the carseat hoping that would make baby girl think i was driving the car and not upset her but the case worker insisted on doing it herself. so baby girl started crying and vomiting all over the carseat. SHe was covered in puke! I wanted to take her out and clean her up since the next stop was an hour away at her grandmas house. but the case worker opted to not let me. SO needless to say I was a mess when they left. I was just so frustrated! It was so tramatic for baby. there had to be a better way to do it. But now baby girl is home with her family and I am praying that that part of the transition was easy. So its official .. this was my least favorite part. It ends just like that. they just take the kid and thats that!

But the good news is that the kids seem to be taking it well. Nana wants to make a picture album but the boys havent really mentioned it. We are having a relaxing peaceful morning here. We did make a bunny for baby. Sunday was an insane day in our house. The anxiety was very high and everyone was freaking out! I can tell you that we were all lucky to survive the day. So after that day i was sure yesterday would be a mess but not really. So anyways thats my rant... I feel better now! thanks for listening.